My Story by Rocketman
My Story
I was born & raised in a small Mormon community in Utah.
My Parent’s divorced when I was twelve.
My Mother, little sister and I moved to Federal Way Washington.
What an eye opener that was moving from the country to the big city.
I got drunk for the 1st time when I was 15 on MD 20/20.
I woke up the next morning missing 1/2 of my front tooth.
My buddy were trying to stop me from drinking anymore, I pulled the bottle
out of his hand and it hit me in the mouth. I was hooked from the begging.
Back then there were Heads & Jocks. I wasn’t into sports much so I ended up being a Head.
I spent more time out in the woods smoking dope & drinking than I did in school.
I did graduate only because girls did my home work for me.
I was married, divorced and married again by the age of 19 & moved back to Utah.
We had a baby coming & I had no ins. So I got a job working in the coal mines.
My drinking continued to get worse. When my son was born he had a Cerebral hemorrhage in the brain.
The docs didn’t give him any chance of surviving and was supposed to have surgery the next morning.
I begged God to let him live and I promised I would quit drinking.
Well, God did his part. My son did not have to have surgery. He is a Walking Miracle and
just turned 30.
I was ashamed for letting God down and felt like he didn’t want nothing to do with me.
Time passed and drinking got worse. I put my poor wife through hell for the next 13 years.
I would go to the store for a pack of smokes and wouldn’t come home for 2-3 days.
One time I ended up in Ventura California for 2 weeks.
When I moved back to Utah, my Father & I were making up for being separated for 7 years.
He was my fishing buddy. I had 6 sisters and 1 brother. My oldest sister was drinking and driving,
rolled her truck & died. A few years later my father passed away. Too much Vodka had destroyed
his organs. Still I continued to drink.
In 1990 my life was so unmanageable and I knew I needed help. I went to a rehab center. That was when I was introduced to AA and the 12 steps. I attended AA for 6 years & learned allot about myself and how to deal with life on life’s terms. I managed to stay sober for 8 years. Then, my only brother suddenly passed away, also alcohol related. He was my best bud, I couldn’t stand the pain and started drinking hard again. That drunk lasted for 5 years. It was so hard to put the drink down. I searched the internet and found a site called
the sobercity. Stayed sober for 2 years before slipping again. Since then I have had a few months here & a few months there. I know I don’t work the program like I should. I also know I can never enjoy drinking again It is poison to my body. In the past 18 years
I have been sober for 12. Better than nothing I guess.
I want to thank my beautiful wife for her love and support she has given me these past 31 years.
I know I should practice what I preach.
If you really want to get & stay sober, you can.
Just don’t go into it with half measures and hold on to those reservations like I do.
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